Friday, May 14, 2010
@ 6:56 AM
sigh , this relationship ended like fuck fast ?
everything just zoom , gone .
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met M and marrymount , went staircase , yesyes , stop asking , we hugg and kissed .
thenthen , things change lah , really change .
i know you like her . i know .
but why deny ? you good , you good .
damn sad at mall , cried at library .
eileen asked if you want break is it , you say no , feeling still there .
then at night i ask , you replied same thing .
i know you lost feelings lah , really .
then , i cried and cried . 11th may i cry til naoz . wtf .
junxian gave advices , which is like chim only ?
then suggested h2h , so went to find M again .
walked to same place .
you kept pestering for eileen to come .
i dont want , i really dont want .
its supposed to be a h2 , but , in th end she didnt come too .
reached vd , you just sat ther and did your own things .
same here , i tear tissue .
then you went staircase , same place .
i remain silent all th way ,
alhough its like this , but i really have alot alot to say .
i just dont know how to say .
i only know im about to cry .
then you said ' crying wont help you know ? '
i jsut dk what to say lah ,
then you came and hug me .
why ?
then i cried . like one stupid girl .
then you asked for eileen's number .
whoah , i know . its over .
then you left . i gave you th letter .
you left , and i cried .
jsut sat at th void deck and cried and cried .
liek for how long idk , its just long , long ,
idk what to do . i really dont knwo .
called Jw , bestfr , birdy .
i went ranting and crying .
then i went to meet them at mall , with Jw ,
she said alot too .
then i was okay at mall ,
thanks jiayu for rushing down (:
then homed , i felt terrible again .
then everthing came running back again .
cried ! and cried !
then alot alot really alot happen .
then today went school for last paper (:
literature .
i anyhow only , what theme of facade , theme of denial . like WTF !
then went bestfr house .
bathed , and went serangoon .
and meet M .
idk what to do lah ,
then everything started .
which i regretted like fugggggggg .
Barbie kinda scolded him ? want him apologise .
i dont want lah , i really dont want .
then he cried ah ? ):
then yah , i cried too ,.
i dont want to play already .
i really dontwant .
then i asked barbie to stop . and i broke down agian.
but YAY ! i got helicopter's hug . hahahaha .
lucky Doraemon never go . if not i really dk what ley .
then he went home .
i felt guilty . guilty die .
feel bad and bad and bad ,
idk why i did all those .
AH !
i thought i love you no more , budden , now ?
all come back .
Marcus ,
im sorry .
im really sorry for all those bitch stuff i did .
i realise im so stupid .
for doing all those stupid things .
but i dont uds , i really dont .
if feelings fade already ,
then why did you stil hug me ?
why did you stil kiss me ?
why ?
why did you say feeling are stil there ,
you dont wana break .
why ?
why did you left me all alone there to cry ?
why ?!
lemme ask you ,
were you ever serious being with me ?
were you ever sincere about this r/s ?
were you ?
i dont know what you are thinking .
i cant catch a thing .
im falling ,
im breaking down .
im picking up pieces of shattered hearts .
but your not budging .
know what ?
i really missed you .
i really loved you .
i want you back , i really do .
sigh ,
i just wana say im sorry lah , really sorry .
i have explained everything k ,
so please contact me asap .
wil be waiting .
thanks friends ,
Jingwen ; Baby
Huimin ; Bestfr
Jiayu ; Doraemon
Eileen ; Birdy
WoeiTing ; Helicopter ,
and others lah ,
who were actually there for me .
thanks , thanks .
im stil healing ,
i need time .
for th time being , please stay by me , alrights ?
i cant do it alone , by myself .
Posted , with ♥